one and done

Not to be confused with the one shot wonder, the one minute man or other assorted one-off items, I am presently reviewing what it was like to have one day left of work. 

I recently ended what is among the shortest tenures I have held at a company, and while it was a good and worthwhile reason that I left, I'm still amazed at the "I'll miss" moments.  I learned, yet again, why I have less than no desire to work for a woman - although I think the possible exception for that would be a woman who was, or is a team athlete - but all in all, this job wasn't the suck-hole of death I have previously experienced. 

I guess the prospect of being unemployed on purpose - without the presence of large sums of liquid money - makes the heart grow fond for the daily rigors of the paying gig.  As I cruised around and said my goodbyes however, I was struck by how many times I heard "lucky you're getting out" or "o man, take me with you".  Take you with me?  Into about $100k of debt, countless tests, a grueling battery of national exams and the search for a job as a newly minted graduate?  Really, that sounds better?

Being a person who consistently wants to improve and who is learning the art of appreciating the lessons of the now (albeit awkwardly and sometimes after the fact), I guess I can understand the concept of those statements.  But if you are so unhappy as to want to be taken along or 'get out', as it were, why not just get out?  Is the unknown really so daunting that feeling like or acting like you are a caged animal is your only recourse?

Ironically, I just had a phone call to that very effect, because apparently I'm now part this, part that and part gypsy, which is kind of funny, actually.  I guess however, this 'omigod I'm stuck' attitude goes lockstep with the fact that most people live their lives - the vastly greater part of their lives - within about thirty miles of where they grew up.  Get out a little, people.  It's a big world, once you realize you have options.  I'm not really so bold.  

Or okay, maybe I am so bold, but that doesn't mean everyone else can't be, too.  But that aside, seeeeeeee yaaaaaaaa.  Unemployment and mounting financial debt now have me firmly in their clutches.  No going back now...I'm stuck here.