24 March, 2011

And then

Nothing like being awake for days on end....while listening to someone speak a random foreign language at high volume.

Im searching for motivation in a pool of shit. Its lining up for me to step forward and I'm so fucking shot that I cant even stick my foot out to take the step. How to proceed, how to proceed. It's a truly strange sensation to have no idea how things are going to go in any area of my life, at this age. I guess the anxiety, the lack of sleep, lack of exercise and disappearance of any discernable drive at work are a waste of time, but the quandary seems to be how to get out of a six foot hole with no ladder?

Bootstraps, baby, 'cause no one else is losing sleep over your trials. Its every man for himself in this bitch, so either sink or swim...your choice. No one's looking out for your ass, so figure it out comme toujours. Et vous pret? Partez.

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