So much going on lately. The government cannot agree on whether the sky is blue, azure, or cerulean to save its life or the country's global credit rating, it's humid enough that I've noticed people growing gills so they can breathe and I have entered into a bet that is forcing me to stick with and push through the soreness of shrugging off a lead blanket of stress and sadness. Full plate, I say!
I'm feeling lighter though, generally and I think the ascent is worth chronicling, because everyone loves a phoenix from the ashes story. Plus it's cathartic and no one reads this anyway. Right then. I think the greater point here has something to do with dealing with reality and knowing that what you may want, is not necessarily what is best for you. I have never been afraid of change, but in recent years, I have been increasingly reluctant to make positive changes because I was a little beat down by the scourge of physical injury, wanting to be there for other people who then took advantage of me, and a general loss of perspective. I have carried myself for most of my life as if none of that could happen to me, what with my invincibility and all. Turns out, it can happen to anyone. What matters is how you get out from under it all and how you pick up the pieces and carry on.
I chose to make a pretty aggressive bet with a pretty aggressive person. I will not lose anything except for bodyweight and bad feelings however, so with my spoils I intend to buy myself something fancy. It's amazing. I'm down about ten pounds in the last two weeks and I truly think that getting out from under the weight of the things that were keeping me depressed, calling myself chicken and publicizing my goals to people who will give me shit if I don't reach them are three of the best things I have done for myself lately.
And it all starts with the mirror. You don't like what's in it, or what is going on behind your own eyes when you look at them.....make a change. One foot in front of the other, even if one of those feet is sore, numb and looks like shit.
Don't worry, my posts won't all be like this....this is just a good starting point.
